Enough bitching (well, almost)
2 05 2008For the past couple of days, I’ve logged into WordPress and just stared at the blinking cursor. After about 2 or 3 minutes of this, I’ve logged out and resumed mindlessly twiddling my thumbs. It’s not that I don’t have anything to say. It’s just that the things I have to say? Well, they’re stupid. I can think about plenty of things to bitch about (hey maybe I should resume WTF Wednesday next week) but I’m tired of bitching. I’m tired of things ticking me off, ruining my day, and all in all turning me into a Sour Sally. All these frowns aren’t good for preventing wrinkles after all. The real problem is, I don’t really have anything to be happy about right now. It’s been a tough week. I’m tired of work. I’m tired of the strange dreams at night that prompt me to wake up confused and angry. AND I’ve come to the realization that no matter how much you want to trust someone, to like them unconditionally, to believe in them, if they suck as a person it’s just not going to happen. What do you do when someone who you’ve invested real time and energy into turns out to be a selfish brat who doesn’t take your feelings into consideration?
Dammit, there I go with the bitching.
I leave for NYC in just under two weeks. I’m hella excited about this, but also kind of weary because the person I’m bitching about above? Yeah, she’s my travelling companion. I just pray that everything works out, and she can put her selfish attitude aside for three days. (On a side note, if anyone has some recommendations of things to do and see while I’m there, please let me know. I’ve got all the basics lined up: Empire State Building, Statue of Liberty & Ellis Island, The Met, etc. Give me some little-known spots or dining recommendations!)
The past few weeks have been kind of crazy and chaotic. I’ve been running around like a mad-woman who’s trying to DO! IT! ALL! and in the shortest amount of time imaginable, so I’m kind of run down. Here’s how I envision this weekend proceeding: Watch movies tonight and stay up as late as I can (to therefore enhance the amount of time I can sleep in tomorrow!). Clean my house. Make some tasty food. Work on staining my deck (that bitch is taking FOREVER!). Do some yard work. Maybe have dinner with bff. Buy a birthday present for my sorta-kinda little sis (she’s the little sis of a best friend who is turning 16), go to her birthday cookout and see my sorta-kinda adoptive family. All in all, some quality time with people who matter, and some rest and relaxation. B will be stuck working tomorrow (the pitfalls of his job - spring and summer are crazy busy), so I won’t see him much this weekend. But that’s okay. That alone time I discussed in a previous post? Yeah, I’m needing a little bit of that again…
..if only to evaluate some things and sort out some confusion in my head regarding relationships with friends. Because really — I can’t take much more of this shit!
Burgers and Cupcakes: 265 W. 23rd Street. It will change your life.
New York! I’m so envious!
I hope things begin to look brighter soon.
If you like pizza, I would definitely make a trip to Grimaldi’s Pizzeria which is located under the Brooklyn Bridge. http://www.grimaldis.com/brooklyn.htm
Really tasty pizza and if the weather is nice, you can take a stroll across the Brooklyn Bridge. Always a hit.
And make a trip to SoHo to do some shopping. They have interesting street vendors there.
Hope everything works out with your friend. New York is so much fun! I’m sure that you’ll have a great time, and I hope things start to slow down and you can relax!